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Happy Pills

2011-05-22T08:25:00.001-07:00

Thanks JiaMin :) , I love you !!

Its like a daily routine . Sitting down at my chair , thinking , figuring , crying and praying . It was not long ago , when something i thought would not happen again , happened .I was Careful this time . But i don't know why it happened again . I mean things ain't over . Are they ? I myself don't really know . But all i know is that my feelings have yet to change . I believe God placed me in your life all of a sudden for a purpose , But for whatever purpose i will fulfill it .

I don't get it , i was really careful this time . Wasn't I ?

I didn't rush things , did I ? One thing i've learned from all these , is that I'm a package of complex equations and whoever wants to take the challenge becomes confused . Maybe God placed this U.S trip for another Purpose , to give us sometime to think this through . Really think it through . Well God wants best for me right ? But i ain't asking much ... She was simple , organized , God-Fearing , lovable , Easy-going , hard-working , Priorities are Set in placed .

But i wonder where do i fit in ?? :/ Will you will make time for me like you said ? or has things changed ? i'm still waiting . Well what harm is there in waiting ... Not like another girl is going to POP out of no where and steal My heart away. But what if i wait too long and i get too emotionally drawn ? and thing end up the opposite with you . Garh .. Its a big headache . its a risk .. A Big risk .

I promise one thing . I'm setting my feet down here . waiting is my Choice . Anchored to the floor , Bolted to the Floor , nailed , Stappled xD , taped , glued . Everything la . you name it :) .Smile more pls , you are always not smiling when i see you ... Its really depressing for me ..

Feeling Oldish

2011-05-20T08:09:00.000-07:00

I've been listening to so many oldies songs . Richard Marx , Robbie Williams . Rob Steward , Elton John . Etc etc .. they are all awesome songs !! .

my holidays are all occupied . with camps , field trips , birthdays , AND US TRIP :) .

Hmm i need that break .. but i don't need a break from my friends . !!! garh...

another 3 weeks to the LAND OF THE FREE . Haha i wonder why they call it the Land of the Free.

Hmmm Eagle :) Egbert . haha Weee :)

Dare You you To Move!!!

2011-05-19T07:02:00.001-07:00

Hey you . Lets end this . This is just madness ... It's pure stupidity . I missed you .. When you walk pass me , its like you don't even know me ? I waved at you , you ignored me completely ... Whats wrong with us ? Lets End this now .

I Dare you to move !

A good Relationship always starts with a Solid Friendship .

So what do you say ?

Sportstastic !

2011-05-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

Crazy Crazy day .... Football was great , 3rd placing :/ out of 6 teams . Not bad :D !!

Awesome blossoms !!!

Great Job NETBALL GIRLS !!!

And i Salute those who took part in 1500meter and made it through !!!

To > Victoria , Nigel , Darrel , Weili , Zenny , Abigail . Great Job .

I gotten alot worst , physically . It is rest rest rest for me now :D No more Fooling around , needa get my head in the game !

I don't really have much to blog about .. I don't feel like posting photos up cause i'm just absolutely tired and lazy ... Scored a Goal today :) Yay !! Yippy Me . Nigel Ran to Hug me but he accidently hit my throat .

Like A unforgettable moment .

2011-05-09T09:07:00.000-07:00

What's wrong with me .....

2011-05-08T06:29:00.000-07:00

Why do i keep F**king up everything ?

I just don't know what to do these days ....

God what's your plans for me ?

I'm already 17 !!! holy Crappers man !!

When i find that one special thing *again* ,

I ended F**king it up again ...

I rather live in a small cave forever .

I always end up hurting the ones i love .

I'm sorryy ...

Who am I?

2011-05-05T07:25:00.000-07:00

I'm not perfect , i sin , we all sin .

But do we really want to change ?

Although we know that certain actions are wrong .

Why then do we continue to do them ?

Even I can't answer that .

I'm trying to but i can't .

You say you will never leave nor forsake us .

Is there anything else we can ask ?

Cause that's all we need , You Lord .

I'm not perfect , I realized that i neglected many friends who were once close to me . I'm sorry . But i'll make it up . promise . I just been so caught up with Work and trying to get things right , but by doing that i neglected you guys . I love you guys !

Who Am I ?

2011-05-05T07:21:00.000-07:00

Penguins With Big Eyes :/

2011-05-04T07:12:00.000-07:00

A song , really cheers me up in moments like this .

Whatever It takes - Lifehouse .

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/l/lifehouse/whatever_it_takes.html ]
She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

I mean what i say . Believe me :D

hickery Bickery Puck :D

2011-05-03T07:57:00.000-07:00

Gosh Quinn in Glee Season 2 .. Speechless . although she returns to the B**** she was but , man you gotta notice that she is a beauty .

Quoted from Samuel Anthony " is Kate Middleton's sister still single ? " hahaha !

Btw , even i'm curious . I don't wanna know her name because if i do i will start blogging about her :P . anyway .. I think Kate Middleton will do a great Queen when Prince William take the throne .

And news that Osama Bin Laden " that Bas**** is finally dead " gosh !! hate that piece of Crap , Because of him , american's immigration suspects everyone from muslim countries as a treat to their nation .. Hmm the 911 Incident. A really sad Story . So many lifes taken .. So many heart's crushed by the lost of their lost onces ... I'm really afraid of Death .. For myself and my Friends ... But i'm learning to tell myself , whatever it is , God When you want to take me , take me .

N besides !! Live life likes it's your last day . But be realistic la :D .

I'm 17 , i'm starting to drive around ( short distances ) and soon i'll be in college . My mom says it is Alright for me to start dating , but she gives me all the pressure and all .. It is true , what if right now .. I'm emotionally drawn to someone , but what if that day comes where it ends . It's my major year man .. it will just remind me of everything of what happened last year... I'm taking this risk because i know it's worth it . But i guess i need to know my limits . and my limit ends here .... I'm starting to realize that i'm living a fantasy in my head .. a Fantasy that needs to be contained for the time being . I use to say that i will never Date anymore until college because of the incident last year . But look at me now , i'm coming out of my shell to take a risk . RISKY one tho because it's my finally year , but i guess i have to stop myself from being too emotionally drawned .. Waoo okay i'm going to stop here before i start spilling some very Private info ..

Live starting to catch up with me .. College , working , Courtship , Marriage . Gosh all seem so scary but one heck of a journey . A journey in which i'm not ready to take but yet i'm so excited to start . So confusing ... Sometimes i stare blankly into emptiness thinking bout my future . Sometimes it's futile but sometimes its productive . I try talking to God , and it helps , but the answer comes some other way .. Ways that i don't even understand . And whats with my problem of insecurity ... SERIOUSLY >.< , i feel like slapping that crap out of me . SLAPS SLAPS ! D:

To be quite honest with you , sometimes i find my life so boring .. doing the SAME OLD things over and over again .. Its very tiring !! But i guess i just have to deal with it for another year .. I'm 17 this man guys !! and so are some of youss !:D

Some are younger , and i hope i'll be able to set a good example to you guys . Cause the last thing i want you guys to say is that " but Egbert did it before " gosh .. Reputation Destruction much . but yeah through God's help i guess i can do it . So help me to by being honest with me :).

I wanna give a big thank you hug to all who have helped me. through the hard times , through the insecure times . a few is YOU "T" haha :P , ERNIE , JIAMIN , ADRIENNE , SAMUEL MY MAN , and of course you Puppet . Puppet , you know after everything , it did change me , but sometimes i do fall back to it , but hey no one is perfect .

And sometimes , I hate being around some of my friends because their topics are Inconsequential TO THE MAX ... Seriously .. Anyway , i'm heading to bed before my eyes start to swell .. Love you guys !

Nuts Shells on the Floor

2011-04-24T02:52:00.001-07:00

Easter has come to an end . Depressing .. Very depressing ...

I have no more "thing" to look forward to during my week .. Except for you .

Now youth is very appealing . :) I like how things have turned out . But still there is one part missing in it . I'll be waiting . No doubt , it's not like i'm going anywhere yet . I'll still be around ..

Football ... hmmm sports day is arriving .. The thought of it is very scary :/

We have been training so hard , but sometimes i don't get the spirit from the team ...

Anyway i'm think i'm going to stop blogging now .. I find it tiring , and zzzz .

Arms against Spirit

2011-04-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

Hm In Matthew 5:13-16 says ,

Ye are the salt of the earth : but if the salt have lost his savour , wherewith shall it be salted? It is thenceforth good for nothing , but to be cast out and to be trodden under foot of men . Ye are the light of the world . A City that is set on an Hill cannot be hid . Neither do Men light a candle and put in under a bushel , but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your Light so shine before men , that they may see your good works , and glorify your Father which is in Heaven .

In biblical times , Salt was used for twofold purposes :

Seasoning and as a preservative .

Jesus is telling us that we are to "season" society , in another words , we are to influence the world with our Beliefs and our worldview . Our presupposition is based upon the word of God . So we have to portray these views to the world . This doesn't mean that the whole world will be Changed . Like Seasoning a dish , the entire dish does not become salty , but it is affected by the salt .

As preservatives , simply , we need to preserve the influence of God's Justice , Love , And righteousness upon our culture . We don't do this with our own strength but by the power of the Holy Spirit .

Maybe that was my problem , i did things with my own strength . And i see it now why i'm so exhausted .. God please renew me for your Glory and your purpose , Amen .

Penguins Running and Giving Free kisses

2011-04-12T01:00:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep , i can't eat , i can't think straight !

Can I have this Journey with you ?

2011-04-11T07:54:00.000-07:00

I haven't been myself lately .. I'm sorry if i have disappointed you .

It is just , i am going so much now .. And I am tired .. I'm physically , mentally and emotionally .

I'm just searching for that one thing in life to Push me .

That one thing to Cheer me up when i'm down .

That one thing to Slap me when i'm going off track .

That one thing to Hug me when i depressed .

That one thing who will love me no matter what ..

That one thing that will be there for me when i'm not well .

That one thing whom i can share my problems with .

I'm Looking for that one thing . I think i've found it , I hope i'm correct .

Its You !!

And Believe me when i say this , I'll do anything to keep you happy .

But we shouldn't forget , God is the center of everything . So Cheer up :)

You've been really stressed and tired too , i know i can tell . But remember that i'm always here for you , i won't run away . I won't go missing . I won't Leave you . I might not be that physically but i'll be there with you in your thoughts , and i pray your heart too . I'm trying ! , its difficult for me , but hey nothing is easy ain't it ? Think about last time , how fun we had :P
signing off . Egbert To ( you )

Lots of love n care and concern !

Imagine a Snail running :D

2011-03-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

Hmm , well i think its time for a change don't you think ? Maybe lets take it further ? :)

I feel like walking behind you and grabbing you from the back :P and asking "guess who" :) hahaha . hmm It might come through .. one day :P

Omgosh !! Lee Dewyz album !! <3 !!! LOVE LOVE LOVE ! :) sexay !!!

Meow .... I'm so lazy to blog these days ! I need inspiration .. Would you inspire me ? but it would be selfish of me to ask cause you already inspire me in many ways :) believe me when i say , your my Wonderwall :)

Memories that Hurt...

2011-03-25T10:00:00.000-07:00

Looking back at some of my photos ... I feel so disappointed at myself .

One question i would like to ask myself , Why did i do those things ..

I wasted my life , my time , my energy on what ?

I wasted them on things that ended up giving me no happiness .

On things that hurt me to the core , things that made me feel like *shit*....

But looking at now , i keep reminding myself!! I've got things which satisfies me .

I've got my Church :) , i've got my brothers Back !! , I've got some of my childhood friends back .!!

I've got a clearer mind of what i'm going to do in the future . I've Got you , I've got my AWESOME GOD !! :)

Hmm Life is a CLIMB !! WITH TONS AND TONS OF DISAPPOINTMENTS , BUT WHY PONDER ON THE TIHNGS THAT YOU DID WRONG WHEN YOU CAN FOCUS ON THE THINGS YOU CAN DO RIGHT ! :D

Attention Again to those .

2011-03-21T09:09:00.000-07:00

Proverbs 16:23 - A wise man's heart guides his mouth , and his lips promote instruction .

Be like the wise man who puts a seal on his mouth . I know it is hard , but i'm trying my best . And by God's Amazing grace we are forgiven .

Proverbs 16:28 - A perverse man stirs up dissension and a GOSSIP separates close friends .

Proverbs 16:29 - A violent man entices his neighbor and leads him down a path that is not good .

( entice - to attract or lead someone )

Reflect on these two verses very carefully . And think For yourself , have you been Gossiping ?
About a close friend . It is even said in the bible that the cost of gossip is the separation of you from your friend . even if that Friend is close friend or a childhood friend . Or If your friend whom you know is gossiping about someone , saying bad about them . By listening and agreeing to the person , you are equally apart of the gossip whether you like it .

So I say once again ! STOP . Bring an End to this .. I'm sad to say this is even happening to our church ... My Church , my place of rest and peace . The place i am truly happy in the presence of God and his People , My Brothers and Sisters . I Beg of you !! Not for me , but for the sake of your friendships with your friends !

SPORADIC , SPONTANEOUS !! WHATEVER LARHSS

2011-03-21T08:48:00.001-07:00

i'm going to do something Nuts :D ...

really nuts !! So nuts that i think i might not be able to pull it off D: .

I might just expose it too fast !! D: . Crapp !! Help me ...:(

Meow ....

Me : Did i say you look splendid today.

Person : Oh so you're only saying i look nice today lahs !

Me : NoNO !!! D: i didn't mean it in that way .

Haihss Girls have their Powers over us . xD NOT !!! :D

Cold Ice Mints vs Spicy Chicken McDeluxe

2011-03-20T06:49:00.000-07:00

Smile K :D .

Give me the Bigggggggeeessssttt SMILE you CAN GIVE :D .

I'm here for ya no matter what !

Hmm now adays i seem so Addicted to doing covers . I find so much Satisfaction in doing them !! I REALLY DO ..... I'm so happy when i do covers .. So i'm going to do one whenever i'm free :D

MoppyBoppyHoppy

2011-03-16T08:28:00.001-07:00

I don't believe anybody feels the way about you like i do .

Amazing how God can calm us down through his songs .

2011-03-14T10:04:00.001-07:00

The question arises . Who are our true friends ?

Think about it , everyone who reads this . take sometime to meditate on what i say .

Honestly would you Start Rumors , start Gossiping , or even have thoughts which relates anything to do with the Gossip of the person . AND that person is your Childhood friend , or Close Friend , Best friend . That Person may have characteristics which may not seem right to you , may it be the past or now . That give you NO REASON for you TO JUDGE them . The Person may be stubborn , may be arrogant , selfish , prideful , or etc .. But that still doesn't give you the reason to judge them . You say your a friend , Does a friend backstab you . Backstab can be in many MANY ways . May it be gossiping , Starting rumors , holding grudges that lead to many other nasty things .

Seriously , I don't think that is a friend . I ain't sure what the person is , but he definitely not a friend . remember God HATES SLANDER , HE DETEST IT !! SO WHY ARE YOU SINNING BY EVEN THINKING ABOUT THOSE THINGS . Cause i HAD ENOUGH , EVERYWHERE I TURN I SEE MY LOVED ONES , IN SCHOOL , IN MY FAMILY , IN CHURCH !!! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS !! REALLY .. I KNOW HOW IT FEELS , I HAVE BEEN VICTIM OF BACKSTAB , BELIEVE ME IT FELT HORRIBLE . IT CAN BE SO BAD THAT THE PERSON MIGHT EVEN KILL HERSELF ! AND BACK THEN , I DID FEEL THE PRESSURE AND WANTED TO TAKE MY LIFE CAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHO MY FRIENDS WERE . BUT I FOUND PEACE IN GOD . THE PRINCE OF PEACE , THE KING OF LOVE.

GOSSIP CAN BE HURTFUL . YES IT CAN . AND I WILL SAY "FROM EXPERIENCE' .

You may gossip because of a few things ,

JEALOUSY !!

HATRED !!

ANGER!!

ENVY!!!

MANY MORE!!!

ALL THESE GOD HATES !!

( hate is a strong word , especially for a God who is pure , imagine HIM to hate something )

QUESTION YOURSELF PLS !

At what basis do you have the right to say those words .

I WILL AWAKE ALL OF YOU !!

WHY ARE YOU SAYING BAD THINGS ABOUT YOUR FRIEND BEHIND THEIR BACKS !!

FRIENDS WHO HAVE GROWN UP WITH YOU !!

FRIENDS WHO LOVE YOU !!!!

pls !! Stop , i beg you ....

I don't wanna fall out !

2011-03-06T04:20:00.000-08:00

To my Sweet Serendipity ;)

Honestly speaking , the future for both of us is scary ...

In some sort of way . But still exciting . But Fear is somehow placed infront of it .

you always say that God has a plan for us . And i Adore that of you , You have totally gave our future to HIM . So have I , but sometimes i still worry . I mean who can blame me :) Everyone does worry about something or two ..

The Fear of losing You is scary in every possible meaning . It would Bring misery and sorrow to my life . To know that I Lost such an Angel as yourself . Whenever i am worried , these question's pops to my head ..

What if I go overseas and we can't handle it . ( you said you believe in distant-relationship )

But it's gonna be hard , so are you up for it ?

Parents will be one of it..

The Age Gap also , we are a few years apart . not that i have anything against that , it is just that when i am in college you will still be in high-school . and when i am in Uni you will be in college .

Well but somehow something tells me to wait . Which we are , we are waiting and letting God's miraculous powers take over . But sometimes it feels like I am stuck on the other side of the fence . waiting for the fence to be broken down so that i can reach your heart .

But i made a promise to myself and you .. that i will wait . your worth the wait , did you know that ? :) well you are .I don't want an ending with ya !

The apple said to the pear " you look like my green brother "

2011-03-02T07:31:00.000-08:00

Okay the title totally didn't make sense xD . well who cares :P .

I'm in love with this song !!

( If you're not the one ) - Daniel Bedingfield

He has a cool sirname :D

Anyway the lyrics makes me cry ..

Sometimes i do ponder on the lyrics . Thinking about the past .

But lately i've been thinking about YOU when i hear this song .

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

"Walk next to me" Says The Insecure

2011-02-28T20:31:00.001-08:00

What Cowards they're . These Dictators are afraid of the mouse .

Btw "the mouse is a metaphor for something".

I stole this form my brother's blog xD

I have Gone Loko-Loko On MokoMoko Island

2011-02-25T07:28:00.001-08:00

I ain't sure about who i am now . :/ I seem to be seeing so many things clearer now . Like my true friends . Now in my head , i am sorting out the friends who i wanna keep for life , and the friends who are placed under the (time n Season) category . Puppet your definitely A keeper . Hmm thanks for putting sense into my senseless head sometimes :P . Woops , did i just say that ?? ahaha , i did :P so don't go self-praising yourself aite . D:

As for You , Yes YOU !! You know i am talking about a specific you ~

I will wait as long as God Permits me to :) . Cause there is just something different about you . And i don't find that in many girls . Honestly . Your Special from Head to toe :P although i think your feet is kinda cute and funny:P . hahaha and i like them just the way they are.

Today during Chapel , i noticed couple of things . Won't list them down because they are for me and God :) . But i remember one part where she said , don't label someone , or don't make fun of someone for the fun or trill of it . Well i agree totally , i know i use to do it alot . But hey ! Everyone can change . hmmm anyway that's all i've gotta say .

You replied my text when i was writing this :P

A tortoise walking on water .

2011-02-22T06:37:00.000-08:00

If i said i love you .

What would you say ?

If i said i care for you .

How would you react ?

If i said i will take a bullet for you .

What will you do ?

If i said i will be there next to you if you have One more DAY to live .

How would we spend it ?

If i went for a trip and disappeared .

Would you notice my absents ?

If i promised you i will be a Shoulder to Cry on Or a Ear to Listen .

Would you come to me for comfort ?

If your Heart tells you something .

Would follow your heart and not the voices of Men .

If i was dying of dehydration .

Would you Run through a dangerous path to get me water .

(this sounds like fairy tail love story xD)

MY answer for all those questions is

1.) I love you .

2.) I would give you Hug and Spin in circles till i tumble to the floor

3.) If you told me that face to face , Erhm i might just react on impulse :D.

4.) If we had one last day together , i would celebrate all your birthdays till 100 . So in this way you won't miss out , and i will Buy us a bucket of ice-cream and sit under the stars and moon and eat all day long :D .

5.) If you went on a trip and disappeared , i would ask your parents where you went and go and find you . I will not stop till i find you .

6.) I will definitely be a "shoulder and ear" for you :) No doubts !

7.) i will follow my heart , but not always ! I will compare my heart's desires to the Word Of God .

8.) I would run as fast as i could to the ends of the world to get you water . May it be in the middle of a battlefield , a land mine zone , or a pit of sharks :D. Lol I am just relating this question to my fantasy or a HERO or PRINCE ;D

Thank you for Believing in me .

2011-02-20T06:25:00.000-08:00

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

Sometimes during the days in which i live .

You mean a lot to me . :D

You still do and will !! None could take your place .

NONE :D !!!

ohh btw , i love micheal's buble voice xD WEEEE .

Guaranteed

2011-02-19T08:21:00.000-08:00

When someone calls you ugly . Just walk away .

you know why ? , cause God knows your beautiful .

The same goes when someone makes fun of you .

Rest Assured that God knows you are opposite of whatever they say you are .

I wonder why people make fun of each other these days . Seriously

I mean sometimes its fine , but when it gets to much , you yourself should notice .

Ask yourself one question before you insult or make fun of someone .

WHO ARE YOU TO SAY "those words".

If your perfect , please go ahead and insult me .

If your not , then don't bother thinking about making fun of someone .

I've been really messed up these days ....

So many things have been pulling me down .

And i swear , right now !!

that the only things keeping me happy is .

You , My friends and knowing God has something installed for me .

Its really hard to keep telling myself that things happen for a reason .

It really is ... Day after day , it is a big test for me .

Its disappointing me . I pray i don't lose my comfort zones .

They are the only things i have that keeps fighting these stupid disappointing .

Anyway , i've got You , and my friends . Thanks for being there for me . Especially You "t".

I forgot someone.

And of course you Puppet .

Message to You

2011-02-14T18:10:00.001-08:00

Hey Puppet . I found out the reason why we are still talking . For me , your a part of my life . We went through so much , xD its hard to let you go . But thank God for now Aiee .

Was thinking about valentines , people say valentines is for people who are important to you , in which you love or care for . Well Can't say much , but happy Valentines Puppet .

May erhm HIM , bring you much JOY :D

I promise to be a helping Hand :In times of struggles .

In times of pain .

In times of sorrow .

In times of peace

In times of War

In times of persecution xD

In times of disappointments .

In times of confusion .

In times of emotional breakdown .

In times of social discrimination .

Something happened yesterday , Not so sure of it but . You said something that made me challenge myself to wonder if it is the same for me . I stoned for a moment , wondering if i should say those three words . The three words that means everything to everyone . The three words in which everyone becomes jealous of , the three words by which people strive for .

Is it true ?

But i return those three words to you !

with Smiles and Hugs .

Cause i think i may be falling into the spell of <3

Haha Spell of love xD , i made it corny . Anyway its true ...

:) Happy Valentines .

And Happy Valentines to everyone !

Great Chinese New Year .

2011-02-06T00:53:00.000-08:00

Has Been a good Chinese New Year .

More bonding then previous ones . Except my brother ain't in this year's picture .

Well . Very soon , we will all leave and go away !! D:

I didn't get to see Lion dance tho :(

You know , Friendships are so Addictive :/ ,

Concrete Friendships .

Right Puppet :P

I thank God that we are both mature enough to handle things when they turned sour .

Now it's sweeter then honey !

I've Missed you :(

Now With even more restrictions . D:

I'm still crazy for ya :) There are just so many things i wanna tell you ,

And Ask you ! I

If i ask you something , would you say Yes ?

Cause i hope you do .

Random-nesss

2011-02-01T07:06:00.000-08:00

I was googling names for tortoise ! and Guess what i found :D

(READ BELOW)

Dedra
Delores
Donatello
Dory
Dude
Duncan
Egbert
Einstein
Elmer
Ernesto
Felix
Fergie
Filbert

My Name is not only used for PARROTS , BUT ALSO TORTOISE :(

To our Future

2011-01-30T08:15:00.000-08:00

I hope you do say YES . Cause i'm intending to fall in love with you .

If you allow me . :/

Hmm and if you do Allow me to fall in love with you , i hope you fall inlove with me too .

And I'll buy you this shoe :) . Taha !!! And i'll get myself a pair :P With your name of course . hahaha !!! Hmm

Everyone Needs to let their imagination run wild sometimes ya know :D .

Romantic-ist , is what they call me :)

Us against the World

2011-01-26T08:15:00.000-08:00

Hey , You are not alone facing the world .

Don't be a dum dum you dum dum :P .
You Got MUAH !!

ERNEST!!!

SAMUEL !!!!

NICOLA !!!

OON YOW !!

JENNA !!
CHRISTINE CHEE!!!

STEPHEN XD !!

AND EVEN GRACE !!! .

We grew up together when we were 6 , all through std 1- std 6 and to NOW !! Where the relationships of everyone is as strong as Steel !. xD

I love you , they love you !

Hear me !

Don't let anyone tell you that we are drifting away !

If anyone do tell you that , SLAP the living earth out of the person !

Jelly Beans are Good For Health :)

2011-01-20T07:23:00.001-08:00

Hmm JellyBeans !! :D

Everyone LOVES jellybeans :D Don't you .

JELLYBEANS ! :D I think i have only tried 10 flavors !! D:

Anyway , you know sometimes when you are trapped in something really horrible , Searching for a way to get out of it . Looking for friends , family , internet for advice xD . Hmm older people . Well we rarely seek God .

Try giving it a chance ! , when you need someone to talk to you , talk to God . When you need someone to comfort you , Seek God . When you want someone there for you , you can count on GOD ! :D

teehee !

2011-01-12T02:46:00.000-08:00

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;

Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.

And Looking and Smiling at each other is all you wanna do for the rest of the days to come . =)

To You .

I'm Sorry

2011-01-08T23:40:00.000-08:00

I've Made my choice , i'm sorry .

I Don't know how to tell you , so i am typing it here.

She is the one i chose and like , not you . I'm really sorry .

There is no easier way to say this .

Just that you crossed the boundaries .

Boundaries that the girl i like can cross . Not you .

I love you , like my own sister . try to understand .

And i Don't wanna lose you ! :) Cheers aite . I'm still here for you .

If you need ears to listen :) . Promise !!

Going to be Great Year

2011-01-03T06:32:00.000-08:00

A strong feeling is telling me that this will be a Good Year for me and for my Youth too . I've been having a certain prompting about a certain something , some of you may know what i'm talking about . Well those who know :D , join me :) So much Potential in our youth , waiting to be unlocked . I just pray God gives me the Strength and Endurance for it .

Hmm Head Prefect Has a Nice SPARKLE on your Name :) . Haha

Head Of Disclipine Fits Ressembles you a lot :)

You make the effort to text me everyday , what more can i ask ?

Back to school life peepo :) , Studies studies studies !! :D haha AND FOOTBALL FOOTBALL FOOTBALL !! :D

A new Year = A new Opportunity

2011-01-01T06:26:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone . its 2011 !! , guess what i was watching 2012 during new years :D . ahaha Epic:D .

Anyway i didn't go to curve for my normal New Year celebration , but went to church . I know i've made the right choice . Anyway , i a really happy Boy , and i am starting off 2011 with a happy happy Smile :) .

Its a busy year for me , yet an exciting year for me . My DG will be there for me , my friends , and SO will YOU :) . If you know who i'm referring to . Anyway nothing much to say , just THANK GOD !! :D weeeeeee

Back to Old Us

2010-12-24T08:40:00.000-08:00

Looks like we are back to the old us ain't we ?

Just Hi's and Bye's . Well , its been decided i guess , God Bless , and Good luck . I wanna say i Love you like my own sister , but its pointless now .

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D To ALL EARTHLINGS :)

Time to sings Christmas Hymns ! :D , JOY TO THE WORLD !!! I love this song , since i was a small boy . My mom told me i use to hum this song when i was in the car during chinese new year . xD haha :) . There IS alot of things going on in Church lately !!

One Goal i wanna achieve is get the SSMC youth to be closer as one :) . Anyone interested in helping me ? :) Go SSMC YOUTH !! :) To God all praises shall be given . There is so much talent in our youth , we just need to unlock all of them , i challenge you guys to make the effort to unlock them :) , We need them ! i need them , THe CHURCH NEEDS THEM AND GOD NEEDS THEM !! :) . LET NEXT year be a new year of all of us , for SSMC youth , !! revival :D !! yes a revival , Things will be different , definitely :)

Anyway see you Peeps IN church :D , Merry Christmas

Rock N Roll !!

2010-12-22T08:21:00.000-08:00

Awesome week ! Even thought my week was packed like HikkaBoomBoom ! I still managed to find fun in it :D . I just realize doing somethings is actually alot of fun ! . One , is learning new songs on my instruments , playing in a band !! Getting blisters over and over again :D on my finger . Its a nice feeling come to think of it . Meeting new friends !! :) Yes friends , what Joy they bring me :) .

I've returned from Taman C's Prom ! , Jules from Fly-FM was their Host !! :D awesome crap !! . And An honest Mistake was their special guest ( band ) , and a guy who's name i can't remember , but he can do the kazizle sazzile with his mouth , BeatBOX :D .

I played bass for GingerForJustice!! :D

Introducing

- Nikki on the Vocals !

- Leon on the Piano ( or air guitar :P )

- Sam on the Electric !!

- Ernest on the Drums .

- Me on the Bass !! .

What Fun we had !! :) Hoping for more !! Lets GO !!!

Haih , people do give other people cock-stares deserves a punch . ( seriously ) .

Whats their problem :P .

An Honest Mistake , Awesome !! :) , their music is actually very nice . The Bassist Kevin is awesome , the Violinist DANNY! is AMAZING !! And Darren the lead singer :) ACEs man !! ACEs

I'm really satisfied.

2010-12-17T06:45:00.003-08:00

i can finally say that i am satisfied with i have . something new in my life . Or someone ;) .

Old ones just becomes memories . Never to be reminded of .

Prom is coming very soon . 22th !! and so is Christmas !! .
I still haven't went christmas shopping , this is bad !! BAD !! .

I need to go soon , Scott , you better not ditch me the next time ! or else ..

Someone once told me , to have something is better then have nothing . Well it struck me . :D so i'm satisfied . Well in this instance , to have someone is better to have nothing :P . TeeHee

>.<

Christmas !! I can't wait to go caroling and can't wait to get and give pressies :D. Meow !

I'm really satisfied.

2010-12-17T06:45:00.001-08:00

I'm a happpy Boy

2010-12-15T18:13:00.001-08:00

I just found out something yesterday . And i am a happy boy ! :)

Happey happey boy ! . HAPPEY ! .

I'm glad you feel the same way too :) .

A new change ? Yes / No ?

2010-12-15T07:04:00.000-08:00

Hmm , youth camp is over. I see somethings more clearly now . I realize that i have wasted my life on things and even people who can never bring me anywhere . I realize the things i've been doing was just stupid , immature and childish of me . I realize that i have neglected the things that was actually important to me .

I wanna bring an end to this .

If it means losing friends or things , so be it .

Cause what life would it be , if i were to just sit about , stone , and not care about my life .

I should be out there , doing things that will actually bring me closer to my Goals .

I should be out there , doing things that are right in the sight of the Lord .

I'm ashamed of my pass . I'm ashamed of what i did .

New friends , i've meet .

Friends i have grown closer to .

Friends who i found to be alot of comfort .

Found my DG important to me .

And found the Ambition to serve God .

Jireh's randomness

2010-12-07T01:46:00.000-08:00

Jireh Yeong: egbertomon use butt slam...

Jireh Yeong: it's super effective

Jireh Yeong: kamhonmon fainted

Jireh Yeong: go susumon

Jireh Yeong: susumon use stickybody

Jireh Yeong: Critical hit!

Jireh Yeong: egbertomon use myfaceishot

Jireh Yeong: It's super effective

Jireh Yeong: susumon got burned

Jireh Yeong: susumon use grabnippletilyoulactate

Jireh Yeong: egbertomon flinched and paralyzed

Jireh Yeong: It's super effective

Jireh Yeong: egbertomon fainted

Jireh Yeong: Jireh won 10000000$

What a Week ....

2010-12-03T09:58:00.001-08:00

I've been so Jammed Packed this week .

Monday i had to go for a meeting .

Tuesday had tuition fever !

Wednesday went to church for worship practice

Thursday went to church for worship practice again !

Friday Went to Low yat to but Headphones and hard-drive , Went with KamHon .

Hmm it was a fun week .

Someone texted me saying that her friends is saying something about me . Hmm . It is just to ridiculous to post online . :P Now a-days , i kinda hate lovey dovey songs ... I want songs which are rockish !! and etc . I don't know why .. I use to love RnB , jazz , blues , funk , pop. but now i find it irritating , or just heartbreaking .

My right index finger and middle finger has blisters on them ... From all the bass . It ain't easy being a bassist ! and it ain't easy being a drummer too ! I just feel like performing like MAD !! In Malls , in Church , OutDoors , any where that has things breathing and talking .

I wanna play football , i haven't played in awhile . I would say i am out of form . really off ! . Badminton today was the only exercise i had for the pass 1 and a half weeks . I feel so restless . where is everyone when you need them !! SCOTT GET YOUR ASS BACK IN KL NOW !!!

Gawd!!!!

Hmm blitzone just opened near centerpoint . It is getting busier every moment ! Sooner or later its gonna be packed and you would have to pre -book the seats .

I'm a very curious boy , and i like adventure . But it normally leads to me getting into SHIT !!

Can't wait for Youth Camp !! although i will be busy trying to organize everything , with God's Help i will be able to manage it ! . Hmm Grace why !! why !!!!

In my Headzzz .....

2010-12-01T10:19:00.000-08:00

Why do i keep comparing .... I gotta stop or else i am screwed .

I wanna say i love you , but in a different way :) . I wanna hug you and hold you tight .

But why aren't coming back D: Your so far away . I haven't seen you in such a long time .

COME BACK TO MALAYSIA FOR HEAVEN SAKES >.<

And yes you do look cute when you give that Puffy Face :P
If only i took a picture of that . oh well :P next time then .

I've been so busy lately , i swear my backbone can literally break ! D: . This is bad , i ain't getting enough sleep , i'm been thinking really hard if i want it , and if i don't want it , have i gotten myself in deep shit . Well I can only say "boom watcha say" .

Signing off Guys And Gals , Nighty night .

2010-11-26T08:32:00.001-08:00

2010-11-26T08:30:00.001-08:00

2010-11-26T08:29:00.000-08:00

Menu's are Misleading !

2010-11-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

Today i went to Rib's to eat . A burger caught my eye " triple pork patties burger ".

So i wanted to try it . When it came , i thought it was a prank or somthing . So i waited for the lady to bring me my buns . When i realized something was not right , i called her and asked .

Me : where are my buns .

Lady : excuse me ???

Me : my burger buns .

Lady : ohh ! that one no bun one ! only got the pork . No bun .

Me : wat the fuck !!! ( quietly in my head ) .

The lady is a myanmar-ist i think .

I must have done something right !

2010-11-26T08:04:00.001-08:00

Everyday i wake up and the first thing that comes to my mind is .

"ARH GAWD !! ANOTHER DAY OF HOLIDAY "

"YAY ITS ANOTHER DAY OF HOLIDAY !!!"

Hmm i confuse myself sometimes .

Hmm you seem so cute when you show that puppy Dog face !! xD

Haha :P

VBS has been awesome , I never had to much Fun with Kids before !

They're so adorable , although some are a pain in the gut!

But majority of them are so cute and adorable !

There is this Small boy name Aaron Wong , he is just the most adorable boy you could ever see !! He is always so clingy to me . He never leaves me =,= . Like never !! , then there is a Nicholas Lim , Aaron's cousin , who has a big big mouth , but he is really kinda and polite .

Then Ryan Wong ! although you are hard to control but your still adorable :P .

Sharon Tiong , can be really hard to control ! She seem to very accustomed with ALL t

he boys in the camp . Hmm Sound Familiar Steph ?

The group went to julian's house for Monopoly fiesta !! xD . A group played monopoly deal and the other played Monopoly . Hmm I had no idea why , but it felt like i had a shot of adrenalin . I was Laughing like a hyena . hahaha . I literally laughed at everything single thing .

Was indeed a really crazy day . Memories came back . But i feel happy xD .

Hmm why didn't we talk like this earlier ....

Being Original .

2010-11-23T06:29:00.001-08:00

I love taking Songs and Remixing them :D , its such a good way to use up your time .

I find so much joy in it . weeeee....

Ka baam :D

So cuteee :D !!!

Penguins are Cool !

2010-11-22T08:54:00.001-08:00

"Scott Tea" Say's Mcdonalds .

I like Mcdonalds , but it is so unhealthy . Gawd .... Muay thai Classes are getting harder and harder . The Routine Jap , Punch , Left Stroke , Right Stroke , Left upper cut , Right Upper Cut and swing swing :D . Hmm Wonder if i can do that routine with any song .

Talking to the Mooonn !!! Trying to get to youu!!! . Love Bruno Mars !!

I've nothing to say on my blog anymore . The fun in my life is dying off , but i like it this way . Lets problems and stress !

I like taking my guitar and learn songs :D Hmm although i never exactly learn them but so what :D . Weeee !!

TAKING TO THE MOOON !!! XD OH !!! GUESS WHAT = the moon has been really bright these days :S . not sure why . but yeah . hahaha .

Staring at the Chat Box :P

Bring Me home !!

2010-11-20T08:55:00.001-08:00

I feel great , better then ever .
I see everything so Clearly now . All the lies , all the mistakes i've made .

I've proud to say i have put everything aside and started to move on .

bye bye to the pass and hello to the Future

Tho you seem scared future , I'm prepared for anything .

You make me smile like a Hongkey Pongkey Bafoon :D

Open minded brain :X

2010-11-16T09:42:00.000-08:00

To be or not to be , to be or not to be , to be or not to be , hmm that is the questions .

Answer : NOT TO BE.

Its feels awkward now . And grudging is just something that will fuck people up . why hold the grudge , just say it ya know ? . Hmm i realize i am very questionated , hey but thats me So don't bother trying to change me cause i wont change . Someone once told me , Don't change yourself to fit me or you wont be yourself . So maybe it is true , i don't have to .

Our days and nights are filled with : GAWD!!!!

Ahaha everyone is saying it now . NO idea why. We went to a Muslim Mosque and Museum today . And man was it enducational . Nottt . Hmm Hannah thanks a billion yeah ! Appreciate it .

GAWD ZANE !!xD

Mistaken or Not ?

2010-11-13T10:37:00.001-08:00

I'm been thinking lately of what i have done . I would say i ain't proud of it . I know i was suppose to forget about everything , but hey ... Who can ... I'm sure you can't yourself . You just choose to fight it internally until you get used to it . I tried everything that seem logical to do ( which is okay with you ) . Hmm to see now that we are totally ignoring each other , hmm didn't you say that we won't go to that point . Looks like it has . It's too late or maybe not . I still keep all the messages and photos as memories . Memories of the best phase of my life that seem "ALL THAT" to me .

Well nothing is perfect ain't it , even the strongest building in the world can tumble down like a shattering glass . And i come to figure i am a package of sorrow for anyone .

Hey but i just wanna let you know that i am fine . I'm doing great and everything is working out for me . Hopefully its the same for you . But you know what would make it better ? If we just started talking again .

Awards night is tmrw , I'm not sure if i should feel nervous or not . :S anyway heading off to bed .

Muay thai !!! :D

Nachos and Lays :D

2010-11-09T07:28:00.000-08:00

Hmm , i seem to have cravings for chips lately . Really really strong cravings . I'm so afraid i might turn fat again . Gawd !! i so do not want that to happen :D . Everyone is talking about family guy , Himym and etc . I don't have the effing time to watch them D: . If only i had the time .FAMILY GUY :D.

I heard today , the school had a trip to a UNI :D .

Damn i wish i had a Dog like that :D !! .

My Favorite catch phrase "Nachos!!!"

2010-11-08T22:35:00.000-08:00

What other way can i say this .

Warranty Card :D!!

2010-11-05T10:32:00.000-07:00

Whenever i look at you , i can't stop thinking about everything .

brushing your hair with my fingers , staring into those lovely eyes , smelling that unique scent of yours , breathing the same air as you , holding your hand , and the taste of your lips .

Hmm . anyway :D ! I can say i'm satisfied at being 16 .

@16 -

Meeting new friends , who have been a blessing to me .

Getting close to someone who has put up with a heck load of shit from me .

See my brother leave for the states .

Helped out my friends who were in need .

In charged of so many things in my life .

Accomplish my goals !

Lost my first kiss !!

Got to know someone beyond what i could possible imagine .

But the worst part of being 16 is that I hurt someone really really badly . I'm just hoping that person forgives me . Well , whats the pass is the pass right ? So what the heck .

Thanks guys for going through so much just to plan everything for my Bday , Honestly that whole "vocal warm-ups" thing , really good ! xD

2010-11-01T08:44:00.001-07:00

All these bitterness , hmm .

They can really destroy a friendship . we both seem to misinterpreting each other . Thats causing us to be fucked up . I'm sorry if i misinterpreted you :) .

Hmm "text me" is awesome :D , free texting , weee .

Oh guess what my father got an Iphone 4 without any plan .

Me: Dad , i will show you how to use it

Dad: Starts laughing .

Me: this is how you call people and text people

Dad: Laughs again .

Me: Look you have a voice control
Dad:*stares at me* , and starts laughing .

Holy crap , i can never teach him something new . Arh :P .

lalalalala >!< . Gonna help Prem produce a 3-4 minute song !! GOD AND GOD ALONE !!! WITH VICKY!! :)

Disgracing ... but i shall stand strong !

2010-10-28T09:12:00.000-07:00

http://www.malaysiakini.com/opinions/41813

Copy this and read the article .

After reading it , i can't stop thinking about all the corruption in this country . They say one malaysia , but holy craps man . That Guy was abused by the policeman , the judge (so happen to be the one who knows the laws best) . He was robbed , stripped naked , abused , and treated horribly .

Reading through it , i felt so much anger against those policeman who did those things . I will never be able to feel the anger he felt , who can ? The policeman offered him and his friends a cigarette and ended up taking Rm10 from their wallets . Wth ! they threatened the family members by asking them "where is my money" . Holy bullocks !

Anyway , can't wait for tmrw night . SA night :) .

Mich !! lets train sheryl *ding * . haha

OldTown white Coffee :D

2010-10-23T21:33:00.000-07:00

I'm am now at Oldtown White Coffee in Bu8 .
Yes it is that big big building next to Centerpoint . I have no idea what the hell the building for . Honestly , its kind of a white elephant . I am now awaiting the arrival of Julian Gan . Michelle and Scott have ditched me D: I am now stuck with Them !!! .

This week !! i lost the pain on my waist , and i gained it back . Not from football , but from badminton .

Maybe what she says about me is true , I am stubborn . :S .

Dreams are suppose to be chased aren't they ? IF NOT , then what the heck are dreams for ?

I'm playing for Joy Lam :D , And grace , if you are reading this ! I promise i will help her , not stress her out :P *ding *

Hocka Pocka , I miss you , Puppet .

I really really wonder !

2010-10-22T10:50:00.001-07:00

Sometimes i really wonder whether the things you say are for me or not . Anyway

I seem realize that everything i've been doing , all have been recorded down in a little tiny book . And the person writing it is , yeah , GOD . hmm ... i really want to take a look at that book at see if i am really living my life i way i should . Its funny how we take things for granted and only when it hit us we then realize we were in wrong . What very complex and ignorant species we are . I'm sad to say that i am one of those "species" . I see everything as it is , but i don't seem to take a closer look at what pain and sorrow they can bring. I tend to see the side that pleases to me the most , but the part that i don't really enjoy , well lets say i just deal with it in my heart . And when that bubble finally pops , everything turns ugly . I've learned my lesson , i guess . I've made mistakes , i know . I'm sorry , but that doesn't mean i cant change . It may take awhile , that doesn't mean you have to throw me off the cliff so that you can be happy .

And btw !! i've collected all the comments that people have given me

Mom tells me " i get too emotionally attached to stuff"

Brother tells me " i'm too ignorant to see my mistakes "

Someone really close to me tells me that " i'm confusing "

My aunties and uncle tells me " why can't you be more like your brother "

A friend tells me that " i am too serious in life "

A friend tells me that " i need to chill more "

A friend tells me that " i need to stop looking back at the pass and look to the future "

And someone really close to me says " i need to forget and let go of things "

I wanna thank , B1tch and Penguinman for being there me ! .Cheers .

Being a Guy is definitely hard !!

2010-10-19T03:05:00.000-07:00

Being a Guy can be so Challenging sometimes . In most cases , the guys are always to be blame . For an example , if a parent catches a group consisting of guys and girls drinking , the Guys would most likely be the prime influencer .

And there is also a part of looking Good! . Gosh if A guy doesn't look good , which girl would want him ? ahaha :P . A guy has to maintain his body structure !! Meaning , getting muscles , being fit , having a nice body shape and be intellectual . And once you get muscles you have to consistently work on them or you will lose them . Rawrr .

Now for an instance , look at Zac Efron . For alot of american boys , he is the teen icon . Hmm

He is charming , Handsome , Cute , adorable , macho .

This would be the few answers some girls might give .

Now lets take this young man as an example .

Girls might say , he looks fine ... (THE END)

Hmm sorry scott xD ..

But honestly !!! Scott would out beat Zac Efron anyday . Who need to look like Zac Efron right ?

hahaha honestly I am kinda writing this for the fun of it :D . yes scott you look cute :P

Like a G6 -_-.

2010-10-16T06:47:00.000-07:00

Hmm i guess G6 means drunk ??

Oh well ...

I got the sore throats . Whole day is really screwed up by it . Gosh !!

I continuously get hiccups , non-stop !! My tummy hurts from all the hiccups . Fck!!!

Gosh while typing this . I'm listening to Far East Movement - Like A G6.

Bryan Adams - Heaven . Listening to the song makes me cry . I keep on thinking about you . I hope your having a good time in Vietnam . Damn i miss you .

I miss Having someone who i can always go to for help , someone whom i know will stand next to me and cheer me up . Someone who make sure that i am smiling before she leaves . I just wanna thank you for everything that you have helped me through . To tell you the truth , i felt safe around you . Even talking to you made me secure . Maybe thats was my problem , or not . :S gosh ...

Fireflies and bubble Bees

2010-10-15T08:49:00.000-07:00

Bang , I killed you with a gun .

Boom , you got killed by a missile .

Slash , you got killed by a knife .

Guess what !!!

Michelle and I and Killing everyone on SA .

Scott you need to get your SA working nawwww !!!! . D:

As Mint Zombies Take over the world!!!

2010-10-14T02:00:00.000-07:00

John Soo !!! you drain me from my mints xD !!

I swear ! you ate more mints then me . (even when i bought them)

School Has been so chaotic lately , Getting so much shit from Two teachers !! --> Jenna & Rachel

Teacher Alan seems very stressed these days , Vic calls him "Testy".

Arhm >,< . yesterday this group of Females :D came from America to Share with us .

Well Zane !! why not you tell your story aie :P .

And Michelle :) WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Spining like a globe .

2010-10-11T05:19:00.000-07:00

Things just seem out of place . Well what can i say , things never stay the same forever . Especially people . Like me , i've changed and it cost me big time !

Maybe is it true that people were not suppose to chase fantasis . But i know for sure your not one . Its funny how some people change not because of someone else , but because of yourself . For an instance , take me as an example . I was with this Amazing girl , I have been Chasing after for over 3 years now ? Well once i finally got something going on between us i mess up . How ?

I will tell you how , I WASN'T being ME !! . That was the mistake . I tried being someone else so that , that girl would find me more pleasing and interesting . But i ended up screwing both of us up . Well , that would make me a Package of sorrow for any girl wont it . :P

Ahaha , i've KNOW it already. AND i will nvr repeat the same mistake .

Birthday is coming Soon !! I'm counting the days as they pass . :D , Can't wait . Presents , Surprises . But it won't be complete with you .

Seriously Sorry .

2010-10-02T06:32:00.000-07:00

Whatever you wanna say just say it to face my alright ?

Would i ever say anything about you like that online ?

I'm sorry ! i said it .If there is anyway i can prove it to you .

Words can only do that much . If you need time i will give you all you want . I wont text you anymore , i wont call you anymore . Until we're ready . If i cross my boundaries i apologize .

You can ignore me all you like . I deserve it .

I said things and reacted to things which has made you stare at me with those eyes of anger .

You might hate me as you read this now . but i just hope when you do read this , you will just forgive me . I've lost your trust and maybe thats the worst i can lose . Losing your trust = losing you .

I still wanna make this right .

So i will do my part cause .

Everyone else as my witness !!

Getting Close to you was already so hard . I know i have fucked things up . I am sorry ! I know i kept on bringing it up over and over again . You have all right to be angry at me . You have all right to ask me fuck off . You have all right to ignore me . But do you really want me out of your life forever ? Didn't everything we went through mean anything to you ? I believe with every single living Cell in me that I do still mean something to you . Cause you still do , to you me .

Hey i ain't perfect . I wanted to make things right but i ended up making this worst in the process .

I have to say all these here since you won't reply me at all or even answer my calls . So i hope you still read my blog .

I will do my part in getting things back to normal ! Everyone mark my words . And everyone as a witness to this blog post .

Egbert, with all the sorry-ness i can express .

Just don't bitch about me please ? You can ask me to fuck off , just don't bitch about me .

I know you still care for me and you wont bitch about me . I just hope i am right .

I know this is my world behind bars . Don't make us a war please .

I hate fighting with you . I hate ignoring you . I hate us like this .

Trust me onces more . Please !!

thats all i can ask .

Every inch of Energy is being drained from me ..

2010-09-30T08:21:00.001-07:00

I feel soo tired these days . I have cramps on my tummy and my back . I have been pushing myself to the limits . gosh i need rest ..

Choir

Drama

Chapel

Prefect

Music

Studies

Family

HOLY SHIT ..

Lack Of heineken ..

2010-09-27T09:03:00.001-07:00

Seriously !! Me and Mom spent an hour++ searching for Heineken Beer .

Screw you White people !! You're draining me from Heineken D: ..

Rawrrr .

Meow !! heineken D: awesome beer .

too much to say with a title ..

2010-09-26T06:22:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid . I am filled with regrets . I was stupid . Idiotic . Senseless . Thoughtless . Selfish . Insensitive . Impatient .

But the best part was that she still Believed in me .

Why didn't i see it earlier ?

Was i That stupid ?

Was i that blur . Was i was i..

MoonCake Festival ..

2010-09-22T08:51:00.001-07:00

This is the First time Celebrating Mooncake Festival outside my BU Community .

We went as far as Taman Aman - which is just next to Taman Paramount.

MOoOOOOoooOOOnNNKAEEEE !!! IS AWEEEEEEESSSSOOOME :D

We walked there from Michelle's house . We stopped half way to grab dinner At A mama

k !! The table was filled with Nasi Lemak and Indo-Mee . Ooo !! and the best part was that, they sold otak otak !! a basket for Rm 3 . Gosh it was yummy . I at a whole basket , one basket had Five pieces . After digesting our lovely , yet unhealthy dinner we took off . Heading to the Park , We stopped half way at KFC because some of them wanted to use the toilet . Sadly KFC didn't have a toilet because it was under renovation .

At the Park we found a skateboard track/ring , whatever it is called . Everyone was running up trying to get to the top . Michelle and especially Sheryl had difficulty jumping up . We found a little baby frog jumping around , everyone went hectic trying to catch it xD. Went to a gazebo by the big big pond , we lighted the whole place with candles , but it all died off because the candles were too small. Some of us started burning paper , plastic , even the pretty lanterns . Bob was acting all "caveman-ish" . After the Poor Display of fire , some went walking around with pretty lanterns to meet other people , half stayed behind to stone . Bob was one who stayed back , he didn't just stone with us man , he went all caveman-ish and started burning a stick . Started burning down candles making them into wax and started making weird noises .

Sheryl managed to climb up the skateboard ring* but while coming down she slipped and landed on her back , I was suppose to catch her . haha but i didn't . Shit !! D: SORRY SHERYL !!!!

Time is Ticking .

2010-09-17T20:44:00.001-07:00

Responsibilities , Work , Priorities , Obligations , Studies , Friend , Family , Music , My Dogs , Sports . Rawrr so many thingsss ...

I realize i am getting older by the second , but i still wanna be that small boy that had a carefree life .. Looks like it ain't gonna happen . Sooner or later i will be able to drive , graduate , go to college , then Uni , then get a job , find a wife , Settle in , have a family and turn old .

I just hope i will be able Hold on to the Friends i have . You know who you are . So try to help me .

I also realize , in my whole life , i am been following people's footsteps . Maybe it is about time i stepped out .. And start making my own .. Independence seem scary . D:

Flatters :D

2010-09-15T21:39:00.001-07:00

Okay Girls !!! A lesson .. About guys ...

10rules:

1st - when you compliment him like saying "you have an infectious Smile" that all you have to say to catch his attention .

2nd - When a guy looks are you , don't look back at him . He might either get weirded out or he might take it as a sign .

3rd - Guys loves to see you laugh and smile .

4th - Girls if your with a Guy , Make sure you don't get too close with another guy . This will just create space for problems .. ( Respect each other )

5th - When a guy declines your help , doesn't mean he doesn't want you to help , it is just that he doesn't want to trouble you .

6th - For Guys , Me in particular ,Girls if you take time to notice His times of needs , The guy would know you care for him . ( I once told a girl , it is the littlest things she did that made me feel safe and loved ).

7th - Don't make a guy choose between Football and you . My suggestion : Join in with him .

8th - Guys are very sensitive creatures , but we don't show it . ( some guys do , some don't ) so don't take advantage of us :)

9th - When a Guy makes a promise to one of you girls , he means it , but he is just too afraid to perform the promise .

10th - When the Guy is trying to change , it take a really long time . So give him time yeah ;D .

And last of all . 11th , when a Guy buys you something - a ring , a shirt , a necklace , a bracelet and etc , there is a sentimental value behind it , so keep it :D

Flatters :D

2010-09-15T21:39:00.000-07:00

On Form ??

2010-09-15T09:19:00.000-07:00

Hmm was it just me or did i just kicked ass in futsal today .

Yes i am finally on form now . Rawerr ..

Anyway guys i might stop blogging for awhile

Well cause honestly whenever i try , i can't seem to think of anything .

i Just don't know how to talk to you anymore .

Until i return to who i use to be . I have no thrill for excitement .

everything about my life seem to dull.

Hmm I realize that i find joy and comfort around my instruments . Hmm weird huh . Well maybe what people is true "you can express who you really are through music" . Hmm Tmrw is one malaysia . Honestly what is the difference with One Malaysia and Merdeka .

Losing Hair !

2010-09-08T18:33:00.000-07:00

Back from the perhentian trip and it was an awesome trip indeed .

The day of departure , we waited from 9.30 to 11.30 for the bus to arrive . I soon found out our bus was a "bus tambahan" . Meaning the buses were added to meet the demand of the extra travelers . While waiting , we meet these two Chinese fokes with a really strong accent . They were heading to perhentian for their honeymoon . OOoooo :D. Sadly , no one understood them . their accent was so strong that while speaking chinese or english , it sounded like they were talking gibberish .. Well , thank God Zhi-ling was there . As Soon as the buss arrived , we saw everyone rushed into the bus , except for us . We were wondering whether it was the correct bus or not . We spent another hour asking if this was the bus to Kuala Besut and we got no answer .Somehow , things fell into place and we arrived there safely . I couldn't get any sleep in the bus. Stupid bus . I Swear never ever to take "bus tambahan" ever again ..

First day , we arrived at the beach aprox 9am ? . We saw so many Guai Low . The smell of fresh air and salt water in my nose turned me on . I was anxious to get into the water ... And once again we waited to be checked in into the hotel . While waiting Julian , Nigel , Kam Hon , and me all changed into something more comfortable . We went to the other beach which was about 10 minute walk .

Rawr , i am bored writing this blog . Maybe it is because i didn't get enough sleep xD . My phone died so many times on the island . Trying to text or call people was hell ... OH we meet this german couple : Patrick and Natalie , Patrick is working in a psychiatric center i think , and Natalie is studying to be a Geologist :S . They are walking chimneys . We went snorkeling with them .

KamHon was a baby when he saw a shark .

Me and Kam Hon got stung by jellyfish .

Nigel got sucked by a sucker fish and had sucking symptoms . He was going around saying suck my nipples la .:/

Hm Well honestly i don't miss that place . I need home . And no i am not spoilt.

Puppet is getting Earing piercings !! Finally :D !! Rawrrr

My Wish - Rascal Flatts

2010-08-28T09:11:00.000-07:00

Amazing how people get disappointed at a certain someone

just because that certain someone didn't show it or tell you

Well my mistake lies there

I overreacted , i got paranoid , i got insecure

Over what ??

OVER NOTHING ..

I will miss those times we had , but i had to let you go because i don't deserve you . Any guy would be lucky to have you cause you are really a blessing . You were and are still a blessing to me . I will cherish your friendship forever and forever . And i promise you i will never let you go .

I bet we can be so close that even our kids would know each other . I really have to say you were an awesome friend - more then a friend and now your an awesome close friend . Right now it feels like we know each other better than anyone . Your like a sister to me . If you need any help or guy help come to me . I will promise to be there for you . Just like how i did last time . and i will come to you for any help. hold on to the bracelet i gave you and remember us . hmm i'll be there for you like a close friend , a best friend or even a brother . Whatever you want me to be cause i got to discover a side of you that i would never possibly discover . Your an amazing person , you have your priorities straighten out and you thought me or opened my eyes to things that i have been neglecting lately .

Maybe its because i expected too much .

My friends , don't do what i did .

Cause it will come with a big consequence .

A really big one .

This was one heck of an awesome phase of life . I don't think i can ever forget it . Love you as a friend , but i heck like you more then one . Signing off .

I have discovered two theories .

2010-08-19T07:49:00.003-07:00

Theory One :

For all those guy singers . You may not notice , but you can reach a high note when you sing louder . try it out . !!! seriously .. So this means SING LOUDER YOU PUSSIES :D .

Theory Two :

Do you realize that almost all Cars that has "P" sticker on them have a dent or scratch on the car :D . If you don't realize pay more attention . haha this is so cool :/ hm

Alright gonna head back skyping with scott and kamhon . Phones are ringing off the HOOK D: .. !!

I have discovered two theories .

2010-08-19T07:49:00.001-07:00

Sorry !!

2010-08-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

I PROMISE I WILL MAKE THINGS BACK TO HOW THEY WERE :) .

SCOUTS OATH :D

Safe and Sound

2010-08-15T05:52:00.000-07:00

Premier league 2011 has started :D Wooo hoo ..

Anyway i haven't been blogging lately , sorry . just too busy with other stuff . Anyway i just found out alot of things i didn't know about myself this week ..

My father got discharged :D yippy >.< , but i have to do things in the house that i could never ever imagine .

Waoh .. i just realize i have nothing to blog about ... D:

This sucks ...

oooo !!! Drops of Jupiter - I CAN FINALLY REACH THE HIGH PARTS :D ... Hmm on August 21 , five boys + my youth group and the form onces are performing . The five boys are doing a solo :D , Weee 5 verse , each boy talking one . Me and ernie are taking the Last two verses that goes one key higher .. Well , for my parents anything ...

Scott finally accomplished 100pages in 2 days :D !! good job Scott . I don't know i just cant seem to jog anymore .. maybe its because of my lack of sleep :/ . I seem weaker now adays .. I gained 3 kg .. and that is just terrible news ..

Boring all me D: .. i am going to stop blogging for now ..

imperfection is just me ..

2010-08-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

I have to say ... i hate myself sometimes ...

I somehow make empty promises because i fail to keep to them .

Its really hard , but i am trying .

Probably i am just careless ..

I learned a very valuable lesson last week .

hmm i just don't seem to post anymore .

Don't give up on me please .

Thanks guys for your prayers for my Father . Really appreciate it . He is getting discharged tmrw . :D thank God !!

hmm ...

2010-08-05T17:01:00.000-07:00

Brother is now in NY ;D . he is so happy . I am happy for him .

Anyway ,

Disappointment will come , but just hang in there , all i need time . This i promise to you and the whole world as my witness . I am trying . Hmm Dyed hair :D SEXAY

if my heart was a house ( awesome song ) :P

2010-07-30T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hello my fellow aliens :D

Brother is leaving for the States very very soon , you can literally count the days with one hand D: .Hmm gonna miss him but on the other hand there are advantages too . Anyway Saturday (tmrw) is my brother's fairwell party . Rawrr ..

Hmm Tickle toes Mel :D Found out Melanie has another weak spot . Joseph and Scott were aiming Mel's toes causing her to isolate herself at one corner far from us . Or i would say very close to us ... Anyway .. Need to watch a movie . CALL ME OUT D: .

Hmm My Msn doesn't seem to be working . This is so fcked up... D: i can't log in , I have a funny feeling i got hacked or something .. THIS IS SO NOT HAPPENING TO ME ...

Ah wim bah wip , ah wim bah wip , Ah wim bah wip .. :D

Scott you FAIL AT Accounts :P haha seriously !! Even Julian gave up on you , NIGEL TOO :P ..

And for you , i meant every word .

Facts about Dogs :/

2010-07-25T06:18:00.000-07:00

I always thought that dogs can never sprain their a PAWS . Well apparently i thought wrong , turned out my Dog sprained his Paw and is now mourning with pain . Watching him is so heartbreaking . Imagine this - the dog lies down , looks at you and start making that sound ( the sound when dogs are in pain ) , and he stares and stares at you waiting for you . When i sit next to him and pet him , he stares away and start mourning again . He can't get up , i have to lift him up , he doesn't wag his tail anymore and he breaths so deeply . Omgosh i hate to see him like this . D:

I also found out there is a disease called mononucleosis and !!!! NO!! You can only get mononucleosis when you got herpes .

But the thought of having mononucleosis is scaweee D: Symptoms are Fever , sore throat , Fatigue and etc . omgosh !!! scaryyyy.

Anyway I got a really really horrible haircut !!

My cousin says i look like Puck .

My brother says i am trying to look like Taylor Lautner .

Some say i look SEXAY .

Some say i look funny .

But probably the only person who hasn't said anything yet is YOU . All you said was it need to be longer . ( this is why i am crazy for you )

About a certain someone .

2010-07-22T07:55:00.001-07:00

Man as much as i hate to say this but , You make more sense then me .

There I said it !! I admit .

It is soo annoying but at the same time attractive :D.

H and H :D

The park .. That BMX rider .. That red shirt man xD .

Rome .... the city of love

2010-07-20T05:05:00.000-07:00

Rome the city of love , wait isn't paris the city of love ? Las Vegas then is the city of sex and money . Malaysia ??? hmm probably the city of "what is right in this country".

Hmmm .. Watched "Love in rome" and damn ! Kristen Bell is HOT xD . anyway back to my point . Aren't we all looking for Love ? Some people are looking for love , but some are waiting for love to appear and slap them in their faces saying " HELLO I AM HERE !!! ". But come to think of it , even i don't know what love is . Ohh people may say , love is when you feel awesome looking or being with the person . To tell you the truth , the only reason why you feel that way is because you like him or her . IF someone comes up and says " i love you " you probably go "wtf " if it is the person you dislike or find weird . But if that person happens to be someone you like, you probably jump into conclusion by saying " i love you too " when actually you don't really mean it . oh yeah you might think you mean it but you don't ... You really don't . Gosh i wish i knew the meaning of love .

Anyway to YOU : your right .. i am mean ...

just my day....

2010-07-12T06:49:00.000-07:00

This morning i watched WC . ( SPAIN WON )

Thanks to Iniesta :D

Anyway around 2.30 i woke up . (thank you for waking me up , i owe you one)

I went down to find my father sleeping and hogging the whole sofa. I had to pull a wooden chair and sit on it . How fortunate , during the first half i was wide awake and ready to shout "GOAL" at any moment . When Ramos received the cross and headed the ball towards to goal . I jumped to my feet shouting "GOAL" but my father woke up and said "he miss la". I had no idea he was even awake . xD. During half time i was hungry . Dad brought back nasi lemak packets . So i munched on them . Cutting this short , i feel asleep during extra time and woke up when the goal was scored , taking a glimpse at the tv , i feel back asleep . I woke up at 6 and i started to wonder why the game wasn't on anymore . My father then woke up and said "the game ended already la" .

So i went up stairs and sleep . Woke up around 1. Went for brunch . Came back did my work .

And just my luck ... My own Chin-up bar fell on my head causing a cut and big bruise on my head . zzz I can't think straight now ...

Your Friend : " YOUR bulldozer is so effing WoW xD haha i can't stop thinking about it . :D AND no !! i didn't get all ego and blabla .

Prestige

2010-07-09T10:02:00.001-07:00

I wonder why people have to make fun of the team that lost .

All i wanted was a hug :) , When you merajuk , it is so cute ---- ( YOU )

World Cup is coming to an end ....

I would say it was awesome .... Well it only happens once every four years .

So it is means killing myself to watch it . Yeah ....

After Shouting , screaming and tears , watching the team you love lose .

I have now three insects in my house with no way of getting home .

Julian is now calling his father .

Nigel is panic-ing cause he has to be home asap .

Kam Hon is just staring at them xD .

Epic ...

World Cup ..

2010-07-04T03:04:00.000-07:00

Argentina has lost , now heading home . Maradona cried for the team . Lionel Messi Cried along .

The World Cried along . I can't stand to see some people insulting Messi or Maradona because they cried . What is so wrong with Men crying ? You senseless , stupid , retarded twarts .

Germany is a good team , no doubt . Argentina made mistakes . Gosh ..

Stoning in front of this screen , think about you .

I miss the Fingers , what happen to us ....

I miss you to.

Tell me ...

2010-07-02T05:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder if i am important ...

Wonder if i am special .

Wonder if i am out of the common folks..

Tell me the truth .

Now waiting for the guys at my father's place ..

Character

2010-06-27T10:50:00.000-07:00

D.L. Moody - Character is who you are in dark .

A Buzzing Sound in My Head

2010-06-25T09:38:00.000-07:00

You worry me sick !!!

Seriously !!

I am going Kakubam ....

National Service

2010-06-19T06:18:00.000-07:00

To both Bernard Goh and Nicholas Tan .

Take care in NS !!

We are going to miss you .

I am gonna miss teasing both of you :D.

Remember God is always with you !

Make Friends !! ( to get protection )

Ciao guys !! We will wait 3months for your return .

Trauma ...

2010-06-18T20:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday , Everyone was shocked by an incident not to be spoke of again .

Physical Contact , Shouting , Screaming , the Angry Walk , Gasping of air from everyone .

A well planned prank turned out to be a turn off .

Apart from that ..

After all the trauma ..

Fun began !!! :D

Laughing , playing , swimming , Eating .

Haha thank you both my chefs !! James Chuah and Andrew Lim with all those who help them .

But i have to say , after all Kam Hon , Julian Gan , Me , Nigel , and etc had went through to get this done . It was not wasted because people still had fun . This will be a lesson indeed .

Anyway my cousin is still curious what is 1st base , 2nd base and 3rd base .

NO ONE TELL HER !

A Safe feeling

2010-06-14T03:35:00.000-07:00

I feel safe .

I feel like all my problems disappear .

I feel comfortable and happy .

If only i could have this feeling everyday .

Sadly i can't .

Your scent ... on my wristband .

Smelling it day and night .

Rawrrrr ....

Plans PLAns PLANSSS !!!

2010-06-13T22:16:00.001-07:00

MY whole HOLIDAY is filled with plans plans plans plans plans plans ...

Nearly every i have some sort of party or occasion .

I can't even spend time with my old friends ..

And even you ..

Rawrrr I hate this . D:

SCOTT AND WEILI !!! rawr if you see this . I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE HELL !!!!

Damn baby , DAMN >.< .

Zombieland xD !!!